the human mind can be strange at a time!

sometimes I just want to be alone and hide from the world, other times I am longing for attention and feel lonly.In this times I feel desolate and unwanted and even the smallest smalltalk chat can make me happy. then there are times  where I feel like every word that is said is to much... it confuse me and its a bad situation ! I don't have many friends because of my sometimes so negative behavior and attitude to things

but I cant change..  

I wish i could!!