Dear Peter! Sorry for not keeping in touch with you as often as I used to. First of all, how are things going? I'm writing in reply to you of your last email asking for advice about your new life and your deserve grant. I realise how difficutl this awkard situation can be to you taking into account that you have new country, new people and so on. If i were you I would trying to enrol in some schools in order to benefits of your grant. Taking into account the effort that cost to you to get the grant. Besides, if you are going to refuse the grant, in the long term you will regret doing the course in this school. Believe me, it is the chance of your life. At first sight, can be hard but take this opportunity to broadening your horizons. For example, meeting new people, travelling along the country, eating local food. For what it's worth, If y were in your trousers I will no doubt it I hope these suggestions will be of help to you Well this is all my news for now. Please drop me a line and let me now what¡s up to you antonio