What really happened may not have a happy ending,

but fore sure love just doesn't happen to boy like me. 

Boy who built his hopes on an intricate web of daydreams.

But, the truth is that everyone has issues, and maybe building up a fake perfect woman in my mind is my biggest issue of all. 

I've been walking around with the ghost of my magic woman. 

He's been haunting me, keeping me from recognizing a world of opportunities that were right in front of me. 

My anger Estelle eventually faded away. After all, she was just giving me what l wanted. 

Every lovesick boy's fantasy. An idealized version of what l imagined love should look like. 

But there's no such thing as perfection, love is for people who are realistic and smart enough to open their hearts and minds, and who realize that a real relationship is the ultimate fantasy. 

l haven't found that relationship, yet, but I've shaken off the shadow of my magic man and I'm finding myself. 

l think that's a pretty good start.