How often do you looking at an account or a paper about successful person begin to think that he is the same as you are. You are thinking that it is unfair. You may turn this to motivation, but, anyway, it has a special taste. The taste of confusion, preachment and imperfection. Nobody told you that you wrong or lazy, but you that this is a point. 

I am strange. I am lazy perfectionist who thinks that if there are no possibilities to do this as you would like to, then you should not spend your time. What did I learn every time after that? That I lost a lot of chances and possibilities? What may I do with this knowledge? Feel disaster? Shame myself? This is stupid. Negative motivation does not work long, moreover, it does not for me at all! 

What I do? I explain myself that this is ok and it is not a reason to dramatize. Nobody perfect. If so, it means that one may find a lot of reason to judge everybody. What we have in the end of days? A lot os reason to judge and a lot of reason to jealous. I am totally confused. All appreciations are relative, even yours self-image is wrong. So what is true? Religion? Science? Morality? Fashion? Nothing? It is too late to ask this kind of question. I am not 18tin. According to my age, I have to worry about job and family. Unfortunately, I am strange.