Hello everyone, I'm Jonathan, spanish speaker and english learner, I'm going to talk you about my story as an english learner and why actually I can't speak as fluent as I expected. I started learning the all posibilities language well-known as english 4 years ago in school, but the trouble was that they only teach you grammar and basic words. When I tried to talk with a native I couldn't understand nothing what he was saying and I couldn't ask more than: how are you?. That's why I decided to learn by myself, I started on July of this year reading begginers' articles and learning in websites such like"duolingo" whom weren't bad at all, but they were similar to a class in school,  I continued reading and reading articles and after a few weeks I decided to read a book in english (I do like to read in spanish) called: "the perks of being a wallflower", it has indeed a very easy vocabulary and expressions, and when I finished the book (despite it had 250 pages I took a month reading it, can you believe it?), I started to read all I could such as newspapers, websites, blogs, books, magazines and brochures . And I thought I already was bilingual. But the truth wrecked me as hard as a wrecking ball (I didn't heard anything in english while I was learning by reading) I couldn't understand neither a single word when I saw a kids movie in english class (the movies was called "spirited away), that was so depressing and made me get upset with myself for don't understand and for don't paid atention to hearing skills that I should developed. This is where another chapter of my story begins: the neccesity of develop completely my english hearing skills; It started eight weeks ago by reading on blogs about : how to understand english movies without subtittles, I made all that I read, such as begin with easy movies like kid's movies or movies that I've already seen and I knew what they were talking about, That made the things too much easier, I could understand the majority of what they were saying, and then I tried with non-animated movies like the godfather and titanic, I certeanly was confused and I saw a lot of weird words so I decided to leave them and see another movies easier than them. (I'm still without understand that movies). The chapter I think will be open for a few months more and finally we are in the third and last chapter of my story called: why can't I understand foreign people? ; this chapter is placed in the present day, (exactly today), I've bee looking for language partners and I found a few native speakers but I didn't talk with them by the videochat and calls, I only spoke with them chating, and I didn't notice the importance of speak. 'til today when at last I talked with an english speaker,  and despite he wasn't a native I couldn't understand some things (I guess is because the open final of the second chapter) I was so worried about don't understand, my legs were shivering and I was hessitating a lot. And then when we finished talking, I noticed that there's a reason why I couldn't understand: I was afraid. When you feel afraid and insecure about something everything get confused and you blow up in worries. But I think we can feel more confident huging the mistakes as they were your most closer friends. Thanks for read this and correct it.